Today I am blurry. My mind is not sharp. Time is a haze. Symbols and numbers make no sense. I am not creative. I am frustrated.
I come home from school and my mother is telling me all about her day, her experiences, etc. She talks a million miles a minute. I had a fine day but I zone out in another world where I am not as happy as she. Her giddiness bothers me. Why should I be any less happy than she is? Why can't I find any joy within myself today? Am I too tired? Too lazy? Is it the heat? PMS? This frustrates me.
I sit down at my piano and began to play, for this generally makes me happy. However today, the notes are just notes. They mean nothing. They go nowhere. They please nobody. "Whats a matter with me!?" I think. But my mind gives me no answers. I am empty today.
One day I can feel wonderful. Magical. Bursting with creativity. The next I am empty.
We have all been there. We are irritated. We have unanswered questions. Our minds are blurry.
Don't these blurry days make the clear ones that much better?
You could be hungover. Just kidding, you're just having an off day. Sometimes, days just mean less. It doesn't mean that they are unimportant, but it just add to the other days. Tomorrow, it will either be better or worse. At least, it will be something. That is, it will if you don't get drunk. Drinking before you're 21 is illegal and dangerous. Just keep that in mind. Luke Pasko, saving the lives of any teenagers who happen to read the comments section of Leah's blog.
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